Saturday, June 6, 2009

You Never Know How Strong You Are.....

Well, I have had to face something that I never thought I could. Bernie's Doctor told me the other day that I would have to start giving him twice daily injections at home. Yeeeeeeeek!! I took a deep breath and said "Yes, that will be fine, so long as someone is able to teach me how to do it". I didn't say that inside I was crumbling as I really didn't think I would be able to do it. When it was time for my lesson, the Nurse couldn't have been sweeter or more patient and after some very good tuition, I stood with injection in hand, I looked and Bernie, Bernie looked at me, I then lined up his stomach and.................................................I did it!!!

I gave one to him just before we left hospital and I have been doing them now for a couple of days. I thought that it would get easier each time, but so far it hasn't. I don't say a word to him that I am uncomfortable doing it, but deep inside, I just wish I could yell out for a nurse. I don't know if it would be easier to give an injection to someone you don't know, or whether the emotional attachment of giving it to a loved one makes it harder. Any nurses out there to give an opinion? Anyway, by me giving him the injections it means we can have him home this week and so it is certainly worth it. Bernie is being prepared for a stem cell transplant soon, and the injections are an important part of the build up to it. Luckily, I have to do them into his stomach and not his bottom like the picture above. I keep joking with Bernie "This wasn't in the wedding vows!!!!!"


Bearly Sane said...

Wow Christine you certainly have some guts...just the thought of needles makes me cringe. But it's amazing what we can cope with when it's to help someone we love.
Biggest hugs to you both.

lapousmor said...

Dear Christine,

It is good to read you again.
I would definately feel the same as you if I had to do injections to someone. Arrrrgh, I hate injections.
this future stem cell transplant looks like very good news. I hope they will be very helpful for Bernie to recover. I hope Bernie is well enough to enjoy his time at home.

My brother too has left hospital and is "okay" enough to go out a little bit to enjoy time with firends. Now i guess he goes not go outs too often as he must avoid being too tired. We are still waiting to know whether the possible bone marrow donnor is a good match or not.

Lots of hugs,
Good luck,

Draffin Bears said...

Oh Christine, you are one brave Lady and I admire your strength.
It will be neat to have Bernie home with you.
The stem cell transplant will be a great thing.
Wishing you all the best with giving the injections, I suppose with practice will hopefully become easier.
My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Hugs to you all.

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kiwi dog lover said...

Hi Chris it is really amazing what we can do if we really have to. I remember when I was pregnant with my daughter I developed diabete's and had to go into hospital and be taught how to inject the insulin what a mess by the time I got confident enough I had had Samantha and the diabete's disappeared. At least now I can donate blood and not be scared to death of the neddle so some good came from it.... big hugs to you and Bernie you are both in my thoughts